I Am Here, But I Am Not

Draw the line between dreams, realities and nightmares. What you dream for is not always what is best for you. Your reality does not always inspire you. Your nightmares do not always have the ability to make you truly afraid.

I dream about summer. I want to get up in the morning and have it be 80 degrees. I want to organize my schedule as I please. I want to go to go swimming at night. I want feel as if there's is nothing I need to do. I want to be with my friends and ignore others. But it is no longer summer, and it is not healthy to live in the past.

My reality: I am senior in high school. Does it get scarier? I hope not. But what is my nightmare? What do I truly fear? I fear regret. I fear spiders, not just the big ones but also the little ones. I fear loosing touch. But, none of these fears actually matter. How, though, do you decide what matters and what does not?